Photography used to be my PASSION
Photography used to be a huge passion of mine. I went to local shows and captured the energy of the bands, wandered around the city finding new views of what I’ve always known and always had my camera with me when hanging out with friends.
Now it’s but a distant memory, but I still enjoy writing. I never really knew that I enjoyed it, but it was always there. I’d post photos for 365 projects and write lengthy captions describing my day.
Continuing this documentation through my blog sounds like a great thing for me. I’ll be posting photos of my day or week and just describing what I did, thoughts I had, what I am grateful for and more. I think it’ll basically be a journal, but something for you to read and perhaps become inspired by.
Lack of motivation
The second week of 2019 is coming to an end as I start up work again tomorrow. Reflecting on the first couple weeks I’ve realized I am stuck in quite a rut. The holidays consisted of many days off work to engage in new and fun activities, when in reality I slept far too much and found myself on the couch far too often. This is kind of how my time off this weekend went as well. I mean, we work so hard during the week right?
Exhaustion hits from the work week and I have no motivation to do anything. At first I’m okay with this, sitting around, hanging with the fur babies and the boyfriend, but it starts to get old REALLY fast. Yet… I cannot seem to get myself to do anything besides attend a movie and watch more of ‘The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel’ which is downright addicting! Anyone else feel this way? Lack of motivation?
Then, I think about how I’m doing nothing productive with my life and it makes me sad. I came up with the conclusion that Kyle and I MUST go on a road trip this summer. It’ll be fun, adventurous, we will see parts of the US neither of us has and be productive! These are my wildest dreams you guys.
I wish I was one of those people that went on spontaneous trips. Except the main problem is… money. How do people have money to go on random trips all the time? Or is everyone just in credit card debt?
Social Media is dangerous – I need to take action
But right now, what am I doing? What am I working towards? Well, this week my brain was entertained by thoughts of going back to school. However, the indecisive me cannot figure out for what subject. I enjoy a variety of things like: writing/journalism, psychology/mental health, social work, houses/decor.
I mull all of these things over while looking at photos of people on social media who are going to grad school, traveling to other countries, getting married, having kids (not longing for this yet), spending time with large groups of friends. And you know what? It makes me depressed. I want these things, but I struggle to find the willpower to achieve them. Yet, I am sure everyone is also struggling, down at times and their lives are not as glamorous as they seem. I think social media is a cruel thing and feeds depression and anxiety.
I have all these ideas, but I need to take action. I think that I need to start small in order to work towards something like travel. A goal I have for this next week is to – do more yoga. Yoga will give me something to do in general, help my depression and anxiety and is healthy for my body.
As of yesterday I am starting, Dedicate – A 30 Day Yoga Journey with Adriene on YouTube. She seems pretty neat, I’ll let you know after a few days how it goes. <3